Groan. Just sitting at the computer trying to start on my CLAW assignment. It's so full of crap, but then again, so are most assignments. Sooo bored. Another fruitless day.
I watched a HK movie today...As Tears Go By....pretty good movie, made better by the fact that Maggie Cheung (melts) in her younger years was in it.
Damn, really have nothing to write about today cos nothing happened. Sigh. I wish there was an earthquake or something. Or a meteorite. Or maybe a volcano eruption. Or maybe an alien invasion. Or a giant tur..............

Hmmm....I've been reading other people's blogs and have realised that mine has a lot to be desired. So yeah, I'm gonna try and make my posts a little more 'exciting' (if thats the word) and 'intimate' for the like one or two people who actually bother to find out what has happened or is happening in my little square world.
Let's see...today I woke up at 12.30pm having played games till 3.30 in the morning. Yes I know, you're thinking, "how sad", and so am I. Anyway, then I jus ate and stuff and was gonna go see a movie with a friend, but being the busy BEE that she was, she couldn't make it so I ended up playing ps2 the whole day.
In the evening I went out for a nice game of tennis with Adam and some friends. Needless to say I suck at the game and... and......why the hell is there a net in tennis?! It would make my life so much easier if there wasn't that damn net there you know.....then maybe all my shots wouldn't smack into the net.....and maybe....maybe I'd be good at the stupid game!.....And those white lines.....
Anyhoo, while I was playing a ball from the other court rolled into mine....and being the good samaritan that I was, I picked up the ball and attempted to hit it back to the people in the other court. And so I swung the racket at the ball........and watched the ball hit the back of this girl who was also playing with me and was standing in front of me. Ouch. Seriously, I always have this knack for injuring people. Yeah and then her bf who was sitting down somewhere ran up to comfort her. He smiled at me but I think secretly he wanted to shove his racket down my throat (or worse).
Damn I gotta start on my assignment tommorow.

I'm so angry tonight. So fucken angry.
Damnit! God-fucking-damnit! I went outside and punched the brick wall till my hands hurt......it always has to happen to me doesn't it.....this whole month has just been so fucking pleasant, don't you think? Just when I think it's time for things to look up.....
What have I done?
What have I done to deserve this?
I just want time to spend with friends. And love. And happiness.
Is that too much to ask?

This week I met a friend. I used to like this friend a lot. She looked pretty as usual, probably more pretty than I used to recall. The truth is, when you like someone and you think you've forgetten about them, deep down somewhere you know that you would stay by their side if given half the chance. I was never given that chance. She greets me and smiles at me and laughs, and I know that to her I am just another guy, a boy who makes her laugh but has nothing to say and even less to give. I wonder though if she ever liked me or thought about me the way I think about her, even for an instant. I wonder if she knows how I used to feel about her. It matters not of course; she has found her happiness, and that belongs to someone else. Still, I wonder what would have happened if I had seized the moment when it was at my fingertips, instead of giving it away, letting it slip through like sand. I know though, that if that moment could come again, I would do the same... hiding, too afraid to face what might and might not be, a paper mask with a permanent grin...

Wooohoo!
I think me and brian's 'reputation' has hit an all-time low at engineering.
We had to hand in a tute on friday, but since I couldnt b stuffed going into uni jus to hand it in, i got brian to hand it in for me. of course me and his answers were the same, and of course they were below sub-standard quality.
so brian handed in the tute and left to go to work...then my friend who was in the tute rang me to tell me the tutor was looking for us, and that he shouted our names out in class because our work was so shit.
Yay!
Now everyone knows how dumb we are!
Life gets better.

The flags are still
No wind blows
It's the heart of man that's in tumult.